ugh, when did worrying about class schedule for next year start?

I am not going to worry about graduating in a year, I'm not going to whittle my time away thinking about how little their is, I am only going to do what I like to do. And what I have to do. And as often as possible I will make those two be one in the same. 

When I graduated from high school, it drove me crazy to hear my friends say how much they would miss it, and each other... saying it and thinking about it didn't change anything- I guess my real fight is with stating the obvious. More and more I want to adopt the Buddhist rule of stopping before I speak and asking myself three questions: Is it truthful? Is it necessary? Is it kind? Honestly I'm less concerned with 1 and 3... they seem almost irrelevant to me. If something is necessary, than whether it is true or kind can back up, it's got to be said.

But what I hate is chit-chat, and I think this explains both why I hate meeting new people and why I have never gotten over a certain ex. With new people, you have to say certain things that you have said a million times and that mean nothing and change nothing. It is such a waste of time and energy and life force! And with Mr. X, there was always more thoughtful glancing around then trying to attach meaning to something with words that words can never articulate anyway. 

In the novels of Henry James, there is so much focus on eye contact- the most important revelations in most of his stories occur with two people looking at each other and suddenly seeing something, something it might be impossible to explain- just that there is so much more going on between two people just looking into each others eyes than through any other way of communicating. 

I bought pre made pina colada- it's very good, but we have no ice.